Chapter 98: Great Personal Cost
The first few weeks after Tessa passed were... not all that different, honestly. Making her a spirit gave her back some of the energy that had waned the last few years. And, well, we knew this was coming. We'd prepared for it. In some ways, things haven't changed. She's just... not always around. Sometimes I need to use my light to conjure her.
This arrangement won't last forever. We agreed on that. Even if my powers can distort her sense of time, she doesn't want to be summoned as a spirit forever. She'll want to rest for good eventually.
I'm not sure when that time will come, but I'll be ready. After all... I have support.
XxX
Yuna put her now empty glass of water down on the metal table. She glanced right, but the door from the restaurant to the living quarters was still shut. Just like it was a minute ago. And a minute before that. And a minute before that.
Yet everyone else's eyes were locked on it. Even as bowls of meat and vegetable stew Guzzie had given the team had long gone cold. The lone exception was Artemis, who was coiled up against the wall on the other side of the table and staring at a gray pillar. Yuna didn't think milotic could
get such empty looks in their eyes. Though, given what she'd heard, she didn't blame him.
Having to leave Leo behind and trust he could handle himself was bad enough. Coming
back to find Seifer in critical condition and Vortex rampaging toward Radiance's capital almost made Yuna want to ask Guzzie what the strongest thing he had to drink in his bar was.
"This is a good thing, right?" The dragapult stole glances at the door. Still closed. "They wouldn't be taking so long if they hadn't found a way to save Seifer."
"Maybe." Nikki leaned forward in her chair. "Or they're trying to figure out how to break the bad news to us."
"Don't say that!"
Cyril slammed his hands down on the table. Red soup splattered out of everyone's bowls. The cosmic zoroark's fur shifted between red and black.
"There's no way I'm the only one thinking it," Nikki retorted, glancing around the table. "Right?"
Igneous stared down at his soup. Scarlett avoided Cyril's gaze. "I'm not," the dragonair mumbled.
"Heeee's a goneeeeer for suuuuure!"
Scarlett's eyes widened in horror. She covered her neck bauble with her wings when Cyril glared daggers at her. "I, uh, will have to have a talk. With myself."
She shrank down toward the floor as Cyril leaned toward her. Igneous shot his arm out. "Berating her won't accomplish anything."
Cyril eyed the grovlazzle's arm like he was about to tear it off. Cid hastily sat up and cleared his throat. "Ah, if I might interject?" The orbeetle's spots glowed pink. "Vegna and Team Bureau are back." He pressed his right hand to his temple. "With Shimmer, apparently.
And Vortex?"
Igneous jumped out of his seat surprisingly fast. "Shimmer's with them? How is he?"
"Aww, worried about your new boytoy?"
"No!" Igneous' head leaf caught fire. Nikki laughed harder when the grovlazzle brandished a Leaf Blade at her. "I want to know he's okay so I can kick his ass guilt-free."
"Suuuuuuuuuure you do." Nikki waved him off dismissively. "And
I'm a holowear supermodel."
"Pipe down, all of you."
Cyril
lunged over the table, nearly knocking a startled Yuna off her chair in the process. He scrambled to his feet and dashed toward the now-open door, where Koraidon stood.
"No..." Cyril staggered to a halt. "No, no. Wipe that look off your face." He waved his arms in front of his head. His starcloud mane rippled like violent waves crashing on the shore. "You're not here with news. You're... you're..."
Koraidon bowed his head.
"I'm sorry."
"Don't you dare!"
"The healers did everything they could." Koraidon clasped his hands together.
"NO!" Cyril dropped to his knees. "You're lying, damn it!"
"I wish I was," Koraidon said. "But Seifer was already gone by the time the healers got him." His feathered horns drooped. "He never had a chance."
Yuna's chest ectoplasm tightened. Her core flickered erratically.
Cyril's fur was a fiery red. He shoved Koraidon aside and ran through the door.
"Ah, Cyril! Wait!" Koraidon turned and ran after him.
"Should we... follow him?" Yuna wondered, somewhat amazed she even managed to get that sentence out. Her head was practically spinning.
No one responded, though. Scarlett stared at her blurry reflection in her untouched soup. A tense Igneous was braced against the wall, clutching his right arm. Nikki was looking at the floor and Artemis hadn't budged from the last time Yuna checked him. He could've fooled her into thinking he was a statue if Yuna didn't know better.
"I should... go check on Team Bureau." Cid hovered into the air, spots flickering erratically. The orbeetle headed for the door to the residential quarters before Yuna could react.
She looked at the others. "Guys?"
Nothing.
"Someone say something." The dragapult fidgeted nervously. "I don't— I'm not sure what to do here."
"And you think
we are?" Scarlett whispered, worriedly rubbing her neck bauble with a wing. "Why'd you have to say that, Starlene? I look like an absolute tool now."
Nikki's chair
creaked against the floor. Yuna waited for the toxtricity to offer something. She'd even settle for something crass. But Nikki shoved her hands in her jacket pockets and quietly headed for the restaurant's other exit leading toward the outpost.
"Wait, Nikki!" Yuna flew after her. Nikki held her right hand up to stop the dragapult.
"Don't."
Yuna's tail shriveled.
"Need some air." Nikki's mohawk dimmed. "I'm fine. Don't worry about me." She continued toward the door, which slid open to let her through.
When Yuna turned back around, she found the other door opening to let Igneous and Scarlett through. "Wait, guys!"
Though she sped toward them, they didn't acknowledge her. And they were already halfway through the glass tunnel leading to the residential quarters by the time Yuna reached the door.
Her shoulders sagged. Yuna couldn't be alone. Not now. She needed something to do or people to be around. Or else she'd... she'd...
A whimpering Tessa lay in the dirt. Ears ringing. Snout broken. Tears blurring her vision.
Yuna shook her head. She forced a rift open into the hanger and darted into it. Noctum and the others were there. The cosmic charizard... clutched an orange rectangle that looked a
lot like one of Leo's plates. But he was lying on the floor, staring at the ceiling with a faraway look in his eyes.
"Noctum!" She flew across the hanger, passing Valkyrie and Vegna talking to Cid. The garchomp had Vortex slung over her shoulder while the dusknoir loomed over Shimmer. Yuna didn't care, though. Why wasn't anyone helping Noctum? He looked ill!
"Are you okay?" Yuna waved her arms around. When she got no response, she put her hands on his shoulders. "Noctum, say something? Are you hurt? Did you get sick?"
"Time... time..."
"Huh?" Yuna nudged the cosmic charizard, but he kept mumbling the same thing. "Hey, guys? I think something's wrong with Noctum!"
"We know." Valkyrie glanced at her. "Soon as we got back, he said Seifer's dead and he's been like that ever since."
Yuna glared at her. "So you thought it'd be okay to leave him like this? He needs help!"
"I was
going to get him a healer," the garchomp growled. "But I have to handle
this charizard first." She adjusted her tenuous grip on Vortex, not caring that her claws dug into his thighs.
"Then I'll go get one," Yuna said. "Most of them are over by... by..."
Her tail partially retracted into her torso. Valkyrie snorted blue purple embers.
"I figured." She turned away from Yuna and stomped across the hangar with her passenger in tow.
Swallowing hard, Yuna turned back to Noctum. The cosmic charizard continued to stare blankly at the ceiling.
"Valkyrie's going to get some healers," Yuna assured him. She hovered to Noctum's side. "It's going to be okay." Except her voice was shaky. Yuna couldn't come up with anything more substantial than that. And Noctum still wasn't acknowledging her.
"As cold as this sounds, you won't get through to him."
Maxie walked over from the large computer terminal setup on the other side of the hanger. There were fewer skorps at the consoles than usual.
The ghostly typhlosion nudged his goggles. "He's in shock."
Yuna figured that was the case. "But why?"
"Hard to say." Maxie shrugged. "Something to do with his makeover, perhaps. I see it changed again."
"His makeover..." Yuna eyed the blue auroras in his belly and wings.
He crossed his stubby arms. "Did you ever ask him about what happened during the fight against Halvus?"
The dragapult winced. "No." She figured they could talk about it when Noctum was ready. That was a reasonable thing to do, right?
"Well, hindsight's twenty-twenty and all." Maxie pinched the bridge of his goggles. "You can stay by his side. But it appears he's holding a plate. You ought to take that to Leo." The ghostly typhlosion looked around the hangar. "Where
is he, anyway?"
Yuna stiffened. "He, um, had one last thing to take care of on the other side of the anomaly."
"I thought you sealed it," Maxie said, narrowing his eyes. "What's going on here?"
"I, um—" Yuna's head pounded again. She wanted to leave. No, she
had to leave.
Without even thinking, she bent over and pulled the plate out of Noctum's grasp. The cosmic charizard resumed mumbling to himself. Yuna backed away, guilt and panic squirming around her insides.
"Wait, where are you going?" Maxie's fiery collar churned. "I asked you a question."
Yuna turned and opened a small rift. The dragapult shot through it, landing on a cot with a blue blanket. The cleffa and eevee dolls on the bed bounced up and landed next to her.
Groaning, Yuna set the plate down next to them. She flopped down on her back, even though that meant her triangular head was slightly propped up.
"Why are we in Leo's room?"
Yuna didn't bother pushing Reshiram away. She traced her right hand over her core and tossed two motes of light next to the plate. Reshiram and Rayquaza appeared in splashes of blue light.
"Mayhaps we're waiting to bestow this plate upon him whence he returns," Rayquaza said, coiling up beside it.
"Guys, please." Yuna squished her temples. "I really... can't do this with you right now."
Broken face in the dirt. The taste of blood and soil. Every breath a struggle.
She kneaded her hands against the blue blanket, trying to will away those images.
"It's, um, okay to be upset," Reshiram whispered, walked up to Yuna's face. "Even if he wasn't exactly your friend, he was your teammate."
Yuna tensed. She squeezed her eyes shut and tried to fill her head with something else. Something like... like the bed of hot coals behind her parents castle! Yuna envisioned the rhythmically pulsating orange glow the coals gave off under the ash-choked skies. The clusters of embers drifting through the air.
Soft fur tickled Tessa's belly. She woke up to a faceful of two icepix tails tickling her snout. Oh God, she was going to sneeze. Roll away, roll away!
"No sneezing," Yuna mumbled.
"Wait, sneeze?" Reshiram shot into the air, flapping his tiny wings. "I'm not looking to get blown away like a dust mite!"
Crap, she'd said that out loud. Yuna opened her eyes and rubbed her face. "It's fine, Reshiram. I was..."
"Old memories?" Rayquaza wondered, still coiled up next to the plate. Yuna nodded.
Reshiram hesitantly landed next to Rayquaza. He looked ready to book it into the air at a moment's notice.
"If thou art that troubled by Sir Seifer's demise—"
"It's stupid," Yuna blurted out, only to throw her hands over her mouth and look down shamefully. "I mean, well, in the back of my head I've always
known we've been at risk of dying. It's been that way since the Noatun mystery dungeon." She sighed. "But, well..."
As she trailed off, Reshiram scratched his tiny chin with a tiny wing claw. "We've always avoided it until now, so you started to take your safety for granted. That fear faded." He folded his wings at his sides. "So, it's a shock to the system."
Yuna stared at Reshiram, blinking slowly. He
was the Sage of Truth... and had a glimpse into her headspace. And nothing she'd thought about since she heard the news had anything to do with Seifer himself. Or even Cyril, who'd just lost his boyfriend.
"It's me," the dragapult whispered.
"Hmm?"
She tilted her head down. Small shadowy ripples lapped at the edges of her core. "I'm upset... because of me," Yuna mumbled. "Because it reminds me... of Tessa dying." She folded her hands over the core, hoping the two Sages couldn't see the shadows. "If I die here... will it go the same way? Will Giratina take over?"
The chaos energy was like tiny needles poking her hands. "Could Giratina just 'kill' me at any moment? We have an agreement, but what's stopping them from breaking it?"
God, Yuna had really taken that for granted, hadn't she? Talking about the past life stuff with the others last week never changed her situation. It simply... made it easier for her to ignore it.
Rayquaza and Reshiram were silent. Yuna didn't blame them. What could they say to reassure her? That she had a strong enough will to resist it? Well, that wouldn't matter if something killed her.
It's only a matter of time before you yield to the inevitable.
... Or maybe they were simply biding their time. Maybe Giratina
expected Yuna to lose heart and let them take her over.
Loud knocks at the door jolted Yuna upright. "C-Come in?" she squeaked. The tiny Sages returned to her core as the door opened. Yuna's fleeting hope Nikki had gone looking for her was dashed when a familiar dusknoir floated in.
"What do you want?" Yuna somewhat sank into Leo's bed.
"And now his eternal life like a dream was obliterated." Vegna flicked his right hand and the door shut behind him. The dusknoir drifted forward... and placed a biscuit on a napkin by Yuna's feet.
She eyed it like it was poisoned. "Uhh..."
"Eat. You need your strength." Vegna pushed the biscuit closer to her. "The specter of death casts a harsh, chilling weight. It takes considerable endurance to rise against it."
Frowning, Yuna took the biscuit. "Sounds like you're telling me to get over it."
Vegna's eye dimmed. He backed away from Leo's bed, crossing his arms. "Perhaps I... could've phrased it better. This is not something one simply 'gets over.'"
"Then what did you mean?" Yuna hesitantly bit into the biscuit. It was surprisingly good. And warm, too.
"Death is a difficult burden to bear," Vegna said. "It's easy to let it paralyze you. Especially when it's something you've experienced for yourself."
Yuna's ectoplasm shriveled. It made her missaim her bite. Biscuit fragments dropped onto the blue blanket. Sighing, Yuna picked them up and stuffed them in her mouth.
"You're worried about this conflict, aren't you?" Vegna put his right hand on his chest. "About what it could do to your present self."
"Why do you care?" Yuna shot back. Of course the inquisitor would see through her quickly. The dragapult didn't want Vegna to have the satisfaction.
So she was surprised when the dusknoir backed further away and slouched against the wall. His arms were still crossed and his head was bowed in thought. "You have the power... to shape the future. For the better."
Squinting at Vegna, Yuna finished the biscuit. "Because of Giratina?"
Vegna shook his head. "Their power might play a role, sure. But I'm talking about what's up here." He tapped the side of his head with his index finger. "Your will."
Yuna had a hard time believing that. She lay on her side, still eyeing Vegna skeptically. "Where is this all coming from?"
The dusknoir silently stared at the ceiling. Then he whispered, "A place of regret, perhaps. I'm not proud of the things I've done."
That was too vague for Yuna. Perhaps if she put it together with his earlier comments about death, she could hazard a guess what Vegna meant.
"Are the rumors true, then?" she asked.
"Which ones?"
"The Grim Reaper stuff," Yuna said. "That you kill people who are found innocent in cases you prosecute."
"No." Vegna's response was instantaneous. He squeezed his crossed arms with his hands.
"Then why haven't you ever said anything about it publicly?"
"Selfishness."
Yuna raised a brow. Wouldn't the selfish thing be to call out such a nasty reputation? She pushed herself up to a seated position. "I don't follow."
"Part of me believed it my penance for lifetimes of caustic decisions made out of selfishness." Vegna held his right hand up and looked at the golden cracks running through his ectoplasm. "Vengeance simmered beneath every action I've done in service of the Kingdom of Radiance."
God, she wished Vegna would turn down the flowery language.
Stupid poetry obsession.
Before Yuna could force him to elaborate, however, a stream of blue light spilled out of her core. A tiny Reshiram materialized in front of Vegna.
"It's you," Reshiram whispered. He pointed his right wing at Vegna.
"Huh?" Yuna frowned.
Reshiram looked back at her apologetically. "When he explained the situation with Necrozma to us... and he talked about Bahamut's journal... something didn't sit right with me."
Vegna looked away from Reshiram.
"Wait, like your truth sense?" Yuna said. It wasn't like Reshiram had brought it up with her lately. The dragapult figured her chaos powers had made him lose it. Or at least weakened it to the point of uselessness.
"I thought maybe I was mistaken," Reshiram continued. "I mean, lawyers seem like the types who can twist the truth around in ways that could fool even me." He shook his head. "But how you're talking right now is eerily familiar."
"Wait, familiar?" Yuna's eyes widened. "As in—"
Reshiram pointed his wing at Vegna again. "You're not some random person who stumbled on Bahamut and took his journal.
You're the soul that was severed from his body.
You're Bahamut."
Silence, save for the humming of the lights in the ceiling. Reshiram held his wing out. Vegna stared at the door. Yuna looked between the two, unsure whether to say anything.
Finally, Vegna bowed his head.
"There's a reason I told your predecessor to scout you in spite of your shortcomings. I never
could get anything past you, Cecil."
XxX
Igneous ended up going to the room he shared with Scarlett and Shimmer instead of looking for Valkyrie and the ponytales. His ear frills hadn't stopped ringing. The dragonair hadn't said anything to him, either. She slithered onto her bed and coiled up tight around her pink pillow. Igneous opted to lie on his back with his right knee bent and his left leg straight. Outside of switching his legs' positions, he hadn't moved.
The volcarona lay on the ground. His body burned. And not in the usual way his inner fire or Flame Body did. This was painful.
Like hooks digging
into his wings and chitin, trying to yank
something out of him.
"I'm sorry." The man with the arceus hairdo loomed over Igneous. "A few of us must bear this awful burden. But the end result will be a world free of suffering. "
Igneous could only cry out in pain. The spiritomb by his lower half swirled around faster and faster. And the tugging got worse and worse.
"You're seeing it too, aren't you?"
"Huh?" The volcarona looked around in a panic, trying to find where that female voice was coming from.
"Yooooooo, Igggggyyyyy! Snap out of it!"
A psychic tug on Igneous' head leaf jolted him upright. "The hell?!" He sprang off his bed, Leaf Blades at the ready... only for them to fizzle out when he found Starlene floating in front of him. She turned and disappeared into Scarlett's neck bauble.
"What— why—" Igneous rubbed his head. "The leaf's sensitive," he mumbled.
"Sorry." Scarlett poked her bed with the tip of her tail. "You were, um, shaking?" The dragonair shook her head. "No, more like
trembling. I was trying to snap you out of it."
"Oh." Igneous slumped onto the floor, curling his arms around his bent knees. "I think I was... remembering something from that past life."
"Your death?"
His leafy tails nearly caught fire but Igneous managed to control himself. "W-Whatever would give you that idea?"
Shuddering, Scarlett tucked her head down so her coiled body hid her neck bauble. "It's what I saw."
Now it was Igneous' turn to shudder. How could he respond to something like that? "I'm sorry," the grovlazzle mumbled, though he didn't sound that sure of himself. "Do you want to talk about it?"
"There's not much to say." Scarlett's wings drooped. "I think I was fighting that Zodiark person. Or his pokémon. They were too strong. I got overwhelmed." She suppressed a wince.
Voice cracking, she said, "It hurt a lot."
Igneous scooted toward her bed. He was about to reach an arm out to her when his X-transceiver buzzed.
Seriously?
He got to his feet and plucked the X-transceiver off the bed. "Sorry, now's not a good ti—"
"I'm running the story."
His blood went cold. That was Sakaki. Brow furrowing, Igneous held the X-transceiver up toward Scarlett and flipped the speakerphone mode on. "What's going on here?" he growled.
"I thought you already knew about the attack in Dazzels," Sakaki said.
"Valkyrie was there, wasn't she?"
"Haven't gotten all the details," Igneous said.
God, he sounded exhausted. "I was in the thick of Herbrides. And we... lost someone in the fight there."
"I see."
Silence came from the other end, but Sakaki hadn't hung up. Igneous was going to do it for him when the nidoking continued,
"Are you okay? You're not thinking about your mother, are you?"
The audino nurse and oranguru doctor finished pulling out the breathing tube. A wheeze escaped the withered sceptile's lips. More like a deflating balloon than a proper breath.
"Well, I am
now," the grovlazzle seethed. Scarlett shot him a worried look. "Whatever you need to say, say it."
Another pause followed, then,
"News outlets were broadcasting the attack. Demerzel showed up and made the same wild claims about the body snatcher on live Polarisvision. Now they're circling the wagons. Calling him an insurgent. Some are implying he's actually a Ryujin plant."
Igneous stomach churned. He
really didn't need this right now. The grovlazzle hadn't even had the strength to find Shimmer and get answers from him.
"I'm running a full exposé in a special edition of the Radiant Beacon,
" Sakaki announced.
"It's all hands on deck. We're printing extra copies to give to our people embedded in the refugee camps for those who fled Tulpise and Venish."
"Okay." Igneous pinched his brow. "Anything else?"
"Once it's out there, I'm pulling everyone but our hidden scouts back to Scale City. Things are going to get volatile."
"That's just a guess, though."
"Call it a gut feeling," Sakaki said.
"That's all I have. Give my regards to your dragonair friend."
Igneous glared at the X-transceiver. "She's been listening in."
And he hung up before Sakaki could respond. Igneous tossed the X-transceiver onto his bed where it bounced onto his pillow. He plopped down on the edge of the bed, putting his head in his hands.
"Great. Just great. Can this day get
any worse?"
The door handle jiggled, then opened with a loud
creak. Igneous and Scarlett looked across the room in unison.
Shimmer stood in the doorway. His tails puffed out.
"Ah. You're, uh, already here." He shrank down. "I don't suppose I can lead with an 'I'm sorry,' huh?"
As much as Igneous wanted to march right up to Shimmer and
sock the ponytales in the snout, he couldn't muster up the energy. The grovlazzle only managed to scooch to the edge of his cot, hunch over, and rest his head on his hands.
Fortunately, a certain latias had Igneous' wish covered. Starlene zipped to Shimmer's side and
immediately chomped on his ear.
"You totaw dumbash!"
"Ow,
oww! Leggo!" Shimmer shook his head and his horn sparked. Starlene backed off, only to jab him in the side with her left wing.
"Not until you explain yourself, buster!" Starlene hovered away when Shimmer glared at her. She punched the air with her tiny hands for a few seconds. Then she vanished back into Scarlett's neck bauble.
"S-Sorry." The dragonair coiled tightly around her pillow and squeezed it. "It's, um, been quite a day."
"Her heart's in the right place." Igneous lifted his head off his hands. "What the hell were you thinking plotting some backroom deal with
pirates and then gallivanting off
right before they showed up?!"
The ponytales' ears folded. "I wasn't planning on that last part. And I honestly thought Gene would loop you guys in."
"Oh, so you assumed!"
Starlene popped out of meeping Scarlett pointing an accusatory claw at Shimmer. "And you know what they say about assuming." She twirled around and pointed at her conical rear.
"He gets it!" Scarlett hissed. The dragonair managed to get Starlene back into her neck bauble. She repositioned herself on the bed so she was lying atop her pillow. She covered her bauble with her wings.
Sighing, Igneous sat up straighter. "Gene does whatever he feels like. You can't leave shit like that for him." The grovlazzle crossed his right leg over his left. "But I wanna know
why you went ahead with such an asinine idea."
"W-Well, in hindsight... I prob— no,
definitely shouldn't have." Shimmer shrank back toward the closed door, looking at his frosty hooves.
"That doesn't answer my question."
"
Technically you didn't phrase it as a question?"
Igneous' head leaf simmered. Shimmer dropped to his belly and covered his head with his forelegs. "I was afraid, okay! Afraid Mom's been up to something in the background!" Shudders racked the ponytales' body. "I thought she'd be able to track me here. And you guys have been so busy running around doing stuff I didn't think I had any other options!"
He poked his head out from his forelegs. Even with one eye open, Shimmer's expression was rather pathetic. But a part of Igneous wouldn't buy it. He clasped his hands together and tapped his chin.
"So, even though I
took you in and
offered to help, you
still felt it better to get Gene to set you up with
complete strangers?" the grovlazzle growled.
Shimmer squeaked and ducked back under his foreleg. "Well, when you put it like that it really
does sound pathetic, huh?"
"Yes."
"Dayum. Twink on twink violence. He's gonna need a rawst berry for that one."
Igneous side-eyed Scarlett, who was rubbing her head so vigorously against her pillow he wondered if the dragonair was trying to phase into it out of embarrassment.
"We've got a right to be angry," the grovlazzle said. His posture slouched a bit. He tapped his claws against his blanket. "Because it wasn't
just the pirates. They gave way to a new anomaly and then Xeromus showed up."
He looked at the door. "You could argue Seifer would still be here if you'd
told us what was going on."
That one seemed to get to Shimmer, who shuddered again. "I'm sorry!" he blurted out repeatedly. "I'd never— I didn't
want this to happen. I was trying to, y'know, make something happen. Like you guys."
"Yeah. That's why I'm mad." Igneous crossed his arms and shook his head. "I've been there. When my mom died. I tried to be the one to make things happen. Didn't tell anyone." His left claws tightened around his right elbow to try and stop the tingling. "Lost an arm for it."
Shimmer winced.
"But it wasn't just that." Igneous squeezed his elbow tighter. Why wouldn't the damn pins and needles go away? "I lost the respect of everyone around me."
"At your... dad's newspaper?" Shimmer uncovered his head and slowly raised it.
Igneous sighed. He wasn't entirely sure if this was a good idea. But given the day's events, he decided to rip the bandage off.
"No. In the Ryujin." The grovlazzle tucked his head down. "Mom was the leader. Dad had an inkling, but never pressed the matter."
He was, of course, twisting the truth. Even though part of Igneous wanted to out Sakaki, his instincts drove him to protect his father. "I was supposed to take over. But after I tried to go after her killers on my own, the clan had doubts. They think I'm reckless. Dead weight.
"Sound familiar?" Igneous eyed Shimmer as the ponytales lifted his head up more. There was confusion sprawled across his face. Igneous quickly added, "I wasn't sure if you'd try to run off to your mothers if I told you the truth. But since you were willing to talk
pirates into raiding one of your kingdom's cities, clearly it doesn't matter anymore."
That undercut whatever Shimmer was planning to say, since he poked dejectedly at the floor with an icy forehoof. "I see," he whispered.
"I'm not entirely clean either," Scarlett piped up. "I
willingly let Vortex and his scientists do all sorts of weird stuff to me so I could get famous." The dragonair rolled her head onto its side. "There was, like, an entire page of side effects this stuff was going to do. Like draining the color from my scales, giving me cataracts, turning me sterile and—"
Igneous accidentally sucked in a sharp breath and descended into a coughing fit. He and Shimmer traded bewildered looks.
"Ah, sorry. TMI?"
"Yeaaaaah." Igneous thumped his chest until the last of the coughing faded. "But, well, do you get the point, Shimmer? We've been where you are. We don't
want to see you make the same dumb decisions." He glanced at Scarlett. "Right?"
Scarlett nodded. "It sounds like you... know you weren't that good of a person back at the academy. The way to fix it isn't by running off on your own to, I dunno, prove something." Her right wing slowly flapped in place.
"Good point." Igneous jabbed the air with a claw. "Like it or not, your mom's one piece of a larger puzzle here. We're juggling a lot. So, if you
really want to apologize, then you have to get with the program. Cooperate."
He slid off the side of the bed and onto the floor. "I'm still learning that part myself, so I guess saying that makes me an asshole. But whatever. There's too much at stake."
Igneous stretched his arms up so his claws grabbed at the bed covers. "That's my spiel. I'm not out to hate you or anything, Shimmer. Especially since I... see myself in you. Which has been... confusing."
An awkward silence followed. Shimmer rested his head on the carpet. "You see it too, huh?" He sighed, coating the carpet by his nostrils in a thin layer of frost.
Embers crackled on Igneous' head leaf. The way Shimmer spoke, it was almost like—
"Oh, brother."
Starlene materialized. Scarlett picked her head up, ready to recall her, when the latias held up her hands.
"I'll be gentle," she promised. "We're
both thinking it."
"Thinking what?" Igneous frowned.
"That while you're crushing on us, Shimmer's crushing on you." Starlene made a little triangle with her claws. "And I think, deep down, you're a bit torn."
Shimmer's horn flickered and Igneous tensed up to avoid his head leaf catching fire.
"C'mon, don't deny it." Starlene drifted toward the floor, looking between the two guys. "He's stuck close to you, Iggy. And you haven't pushed him away."
"Cuz I'm not trying to alienate him." Igneous waved Starlene off dismissively.
"It's true for me," Shimmer admitted, pulling some of his frosty mane over his face in shame. "But I figured, I dunno, this was just another Xander situation. That you'd been nice to me and, with time, I'd realize there wasn't any connection." He laughed nervously. "I mean, y'know, I never thought I'd even
find a reptile attractive."
If that was meant to be a compliment, it missed the mark. Igneous shut his eyes and gently massaged his brow. Try as he might, the grovlazzle couldn't muster up a response.
Sighing, Starlene flopped onto the floor. "Jeez, it's like pulling teeth."
"Gentler," Scarlett chided.
Igneous opened his eyes to see Starlene picking at carpet fibers. "Fine, fine." She locked eyes with Igneous. "You still crushing on us?" The latias pointed to Scarlett.
"Uhh..."
"Yes or no."
"Maybe?"
"Yeesh." Starlene rolled her eyes. She turned her head in Shimmer's direction. "What about him?"
Igneous tried to straighten out the leaves on his right arm.
"I think we have to be more specific," Scarlett said. The dragonair pointed her tail at Shimmer. "Do you find him attractive?"
"I, uh—"
"Yes or no."
The grovlazzle's head leaf crinkled. When did this become an interrogation? "Yes," he admitted in a whisper.
"Do you think you
like him?" Scarlett asked. "In a 'we should go on a date' sort of way?"
That one stumped Igneous. Sure, he saw himself in the ponytales... but was that a good thing or a bad thing?
All Igneous could manage was scratching his head. Shimmer was still hiding his face behind his hair, so Igneous had no idea how he was taking this.
"Okay." Scarlett lifted her head up and recoiled around her pillow. Starlene vanished back into her neck bauble. "Then I think... we're all in similar places."
Igneous frowned. "In what way?"
"Uncertainty." Scarlett brushed tip of her tail back and forth across her blanket. "We're all conflicted about whether or not our feelings are real." The dragonair pointed her tiny wing at Shimmer. "Because of the past." She pointed the wing at Igneous. "Or the present."
Then she looked down at her pillow. "Or the future."
Shimmer finally brushed his hair out of his face so he could look at Scarlett. "Referring to yourself?"
"Yeah. Cuz, like..." Still rubbing her tail against her blanket, Scarlett stole a glance at Igneous. "I've, y'know, seen the changes you've been making. You stuck by me in Herbrides. And tried to save Seifer, even recognizing Gene gave him the best chance. You didn't run off this time."
Igneous heart fluttered, but he kept his expression stoic. "I hear a 'but' in there."
Wings drooping, Scarlett sighed. "It's
hard for me to, like, rationalize thinking about love or whatever when it feels like the world's on fire. And I don't know if that's because of Polaris' experiments or something else."
As much as Igneous wanted to jump to Scarlett's defense, he stayed his tongue. She had said it before: she didn't want a white knight.
Maybe she wants validation.
"That's fair." Igneous' claws dropped to his sides. He tapped them against the carpet. "We haven't even talked about that shit Xeromus said about the cloud daemon being the 'real arceus.'"
"And I don't want to." Scarlett shook her head. "He's lying for Zodiark's sake."
Igneous nodded, though he had the nagging sense they were missing something. Still, if Scarlett didn't want to press it, then he'd drop it. "Yeah. It was just, y'know, an example. Of what could make it hard to think about love and relationships and stuff."
Shimmer got to his feet and made his way over to his bed in the corner opposite the door to their room. "Great," he muttered. "Does that make me a bad person for thinking about it, then?"
Talk about a lose-lose question. Igneous doubted he could say anything that wouldn't upset Shimmer. He silently watched the ponytales climb onto his bed.
"No. People have needs," Scarlett said, to Igneous' surprise. "And, like, if you two want to test the waters, go ahead. Only thing that matters is trying to help the resistance, right?"
There had to be better ways to phrase that. A tingle ran down the grovlazzle's spine and he wasn't sure if that was out of awkwardness or potential excitement.
"I don't know." He stood up and
flopped onto his bed, burying his face in his pillow. "It's been a long day. I just want to sleep."
"What was that?" Scarlett asked.
Igneous tilted his head right. "I just want to sleep. Maybe tomorrow we can, I dunno, do something low-key. Nikki and Yuna can join, too."
Assuming there wasn't some resistance issue they had to tackle, of course.
He didn't bother waiting to see if either of them responded, however. Igneous smushed his face into his pillow, dug his arms underneath it, and tried to will himself to sleep.