It was a wonder Odette hadn't bothered to spend more time in here before. Books a plenty, calm lighting, sparse social interaction, and most of all, plenty of corners to duck into to live out an exhausted emotional episode.
She'd already gone through a box of tissues. An entire box of fucking tissues. The garbage pail next to her was overflowing with them, and she still could not
stop.
Back to the wall, knees to her chest, and her white knuckled grip around the last clean Kleenex she had, she slammed the back of her head against the wall a few more times. Maybe that round would knock some sense back into her. As anticipated, it did not. Marshadow wasn't kidding when he said this is something that would linger.
"
Stop it," she sniffled to herself between slams. When it started to hurt, she just lowered her head in defeat and blew her running nose. "You're so pathetic. Nobody's going to want to commit crime with you if you're acting like
this."
Yeah, the self deprecation thing was bad, she'd heard it far too many times. If she hadn't begged Enora and Odile to go into their balls for a little bit so she could be alone, Enora would have certainly chewed her out. But it usually sobered her up from spells like this quickly, and she desperately needed that. She'd texted Wes to meet in the lounge around this time, so he'd surely be here any minute. Possibly with Nate. And their Pokemon partners. None of them needed to fucking see her like this, because then they'd ask her what was wrong, and she'd have to explain what had happened with Marshadow, and why she was so distraught, and--
Nope. No. She'd gotten plenty deep on this trip, but there was no room to go
that fucking deep. She already got the pity look from telling Steven she was a kidnapping survivor, but having to tell other people that she'd survived something like
that?
Pity look on steroids. She didn't need it right now.
She blew her nose again as her eyes fluttered. Gods, not to mention she was barely staying awake on top of this sob show. A mess, that's what she was. How was she going to keep up with Wes and Nate and their 'mon friends if she could barely make it too steps with out stumbling and having a breakdown?
A nap. A nap would probably do some good. Just like she told herself when she left the arena.
As the thought occurred to her, her phone buzzed. With whatever energy she had left, she fished the device from her pocket and opened the message. Texts from the recon squad. Good, they were on schedule, and it seemed like none of them got into any trouble. At least that was a positive.
In a moment of curiosity, Odette was able to pull herself out of her mental hole in order to crawl out from behind the bookshelf she'd hidden behind to stare at the inconspicuous door at the back of the lounge. Lonesome crying aside, this was a fantastic place to keep an eye out. Once the distraction went under way, surely Xavian and maybe Clink and Orzo would come barreling out through that door, giving her and her group time to go in and get to looking. Until then, they could stay here and quietly watch.
Until until then, this would be where she lived out this episode. She crawled back to her spot and sighed shakily to herself, giving up on the soiled Kleenex and simply using her sleeve to wipe her drenched face.
A nap. A nap would probably do some good.
She was out of sight and out of mind here. The couch that had been pulled over to this corner had its back to the front door, so anybody coming in, or leaving the employee area would have to physically walk over and peer over said couch to find her if she fell asleep on it. And if the culprit got ballsy, Odile's ball was unlocked. Enora could leave it at any time, as always.
A nap.
She tiredly pulled herself onto the leather sofa, not even bothering with any of the pillows propped against it. As soon as her head hit the cushion, she was out like an overheated light.