In a weird twist of evening plans, Odette found herself laying in bed, flanked by both Enora and Odile. Enora had taken to nuzzling into her right hip, while Odile, still in that human form, had her back to her and was facing the wall. Odette supposed she didn't mind the crowd; the bed was big enough for it anyway.
As she gazed up at the ceiling, she thought about Steven. She sincerely hoped he ate the bar she left for him, and took a hot bath. That alone should do him wonders. And she also hoped he and Aggron could pick up that mess...it looked like they really fought. She hoped they'd make up somehow. She was fairly certain they would.
Then she thought about Wes. How he yelled. How she wanted to deck him in the face for it. How she probably should have done a better job of fighting off her anger instead of full send screaming back at him. All it did was make the situation so much worse. Odile wasn't involuntarily floating around in her system anymore, so she had no excuse to let it run wild like that.
But it was hard when it felt like he was speaking directly to her situation too.
The streak had been going well. She'd managed to get on pretty decent terms with almost everyone she'd met so far, so of course, there always had to be one little blemish, didn't there?
Note to self. Never try to be comforting ever again, she thought. It'd only cause more trouble than it was worth, and she was in enough trouble as it was. Even if she had managed to grow a little more empathetic over the years, she was still the same person. The same easily angered, beacon of absolute bad luck and strife.
The sigh she let out was louder than she anticipated, and she saw Enora perk up in her peripheral vision.
"Are you alright?"
She shrugged, keeping her eyes on the ceiling. "I don't know. I'm not good, but I'm not bad either."
When Enora didn't immediately respond, she decided to keep talking.
"Are you alright?"
Enora lowered her chin down to her paws, pondering the question.
The short answer would most likely be no. She'd been so stressed out the past couple days that she felt like she might break out all over her face. She'd felt her temper rise to heights she previously thought it couldn't get to. And with the overwhelming sense of dread this island now carried, with the constant threat that anybody could be kidnapped at any moment by gods knew who...
But then there was a beacon of light somewhere in that dark. She'd made friends. She'd gotten to watch Odette make friends. She'd gotten to watch Odile learn how to control herself and start to show some emotional understanding for once. And there was Novo, and his little nose kisses...
It was her turn to shrug.
"I suppose I'm neutral."
Odette considered the response, before nudging Odile's back. "And you, Grudge? Is there a reason you've insisted on climbing into the bed tonight?"
She was clutching Lululemon to her chest as she slowly turned onto her back as well. She held the rubber chicken up to her face and lightly squeezed it.
"̸I̴ ̶w̷a̵s̴ ̸t̶h̸i̸n̵k̶i̴n̷g̴ ̵a̴b̵o̷u̴t̸ ̴i̸t̸,̵"̶ she eventually spoke,
"̸a̵n̵d̷ ̵I̷ ̷t̶h̵i̸n̵k̵ ̷i̸t̴ ̶w̶o̴u̸l̷d̷ ̶b̵e̵ ̷s̷a̶f̵e̷r̷ ̵i̶f̶ ̸I̷ ̴w̶a̸s̷ ̴l̸i̶k̸e̶.̸.̶.̶r̸i̴g̵h̴t̸ ̸h̵e̷r̶e̷.̶ ̷J̶u̴s̷t̷ ̷i̵n̷ ̵c̸a̷s̵e̴.̶"
She pursed her lips, trying to work through how she wanted to explain herself. But, the longer they were here, the worse she felt. Not even the sight of those Quagsire, or meeting the Pikachu/Zapdos hybrid was enough to fully keep her away from it. Or meeting Sleet. Or fucking around with the people she didn't like. Those things were good in the moment, but she always went back to feeling...on edge.
She hadn't felt this way in a long time. Not since her brothers and sisters decided they were tired of her being the best out of all of them.
That was the only time she'd felt fear, ever.
But, with what happened in Manaphy's presence. Facing mortality, and Odette risking herself again. And watching Odette be upset over everything. And being worried that somebody might take her again.
Now she knew what the durians were called.
Fear. It'd just...been a while.
Gods, loving something was fucking painful, wasn't it? She should hate it. She really should hate it.
But, loving and being worried about Odette felt the
best. Better than the best. The durians didn't feel as bad as the love felt
good.
"B̴e̸c̶a̸u̸s̶e̸ ̷S̴t̵e̸v̴e̸n̷ ̶g̸o̴t̵ ̷a̴t̶t̴a̸c̴k̴e̶d̵ ̸a̴n̷d̴ ̸h̶e̵'̴s̴ ̶a̵ ̷c̸h̷a̸m̴p̴i̸o̸n̴ ̴t̵o̸o̵,̵ ̴s̶o̷ ̵w̵h̷a̷t̶ ̶i̴f̴ ̵y̵o̸u̵ ̴g̶e̵t̶ ̴a̸t̴t̷a̸c̷k̷e̸d̴ ̷n̸e̶x̸t̷?̶ ̸I̵ ̷t̶h̷i̶n̷k̸ ̷a̷s̴ ̸l̴o̷n̸g̶ ̵a̴s̴ ̷I̴'̸m̸ ̷n̸e̷x̴t̸ ̶t̵o̷ ̶y̴o̴u̴,̴ ̴t̴h̸e̷y̴'̴l̶l̴ ̷b̸e̷ ̸t̷o̷o̷ ̸s̵c̶a̵r̶e̶d̸ ̷t̶o̸ ̶t̶r̴y̵ ̶a̷n̷y̴t̴h̴i̸n̵g̷,̴ ̷b̸e̶c̷a̸u̸s̴e̶ ̷I̴'̸m̸ ̶v̶e̷r̵y̷ ̵s̵c̷a̷r̸y̵.̷"̵
Odette clung to both of their words for a while. Let them run laps in her brain, swished them around in her mouth, let them seep into her nerves. Before long, she raised her good hand to rub her eyes.
"Fuck, guys," she said in an agitated huff. "I'm really sorry."
Enora's ears stiffened.
"What for?"
Odette continued to rub her eyes. "I am a walking hub for nefarious bullshit, Enora. I feel like no matter how much we try, something bad always ends up happening to us. And it doesn't help that I run head first into it, and drag you by your ears even when you tell me you don't want me to. I'm not trying to get us hurt, or anybody for that matter, but it can't be helped that if I'm involved, something is always going to go wrong. And you just get yanked along as a result."
Despite what she tried to preach to Steven, what she said to Wes was also true. She was still working on that guilt. And sometimes, it managed to shine through anyway.
Odile sighed that time. She leaned over and rested her cheek on Odette's shoulder.
"̵W̷e̷l̶l̸,̶ ̸s̴o̶m̶e̶ ̸o̸f̸ ̸t̶h̵a̷t̸ ̸m̸i̷g̸h̴t̴ ̸b̴e̵ ̶k̷i̸n̸d̵ ̶o̷f̸ ̶m̸y̸ ̴f̸a̶u̴l̷t̵.̶ ̷I̷ ̸d̶o̸n̶'̷t̴ ̵t̸h̷i̴n̴k̵ ̷a̴n̷y̵ ̸b̵a̴d̸ ̸t̵h̴i̴n̷g̷s̸ ̴w̸o̷u̸l̸d̶ ̶h̵a̴v̷e̵ ̷h̵a̶p̸p̶e̷n̵e̸d̶ ̵t̶o̴ ̷y̵o̸u̴ ̷i̵f̸ ̷I̵-̵-̶"̵
Odette reached up and sat her hand on Odile's other cheek. "No. This would be a mere one off if I were born under normal circumstances, even if I were still born
with you. Florent could have been a fucking sane person. You weren't the one telling him to start a cult. Likewise, you didn't willingly seek me out."
"̵W̴e̴l̵l̸.̴.̶.̷n̷o̶.̶ ̴B̸u̶t̷ ̵y̵o̶u̷ ̴k̶n̸o̶w̴ ̷I̸ ̵d̴o̷ ̷c̴a̶u̶s̴e̶ ̵b̸a̶d̵ ̸t̵h̴i̵n̸g̵s̶ ̴r̸i̷g̷h̸t̴?̶"̵
Shit, she'd always liked causing bad things. She liked the thrill of it. But now it just didn't sit right with her. At least, in certain situations.
Odette kept shaking her head. "You
can. But you're not what's doing this shit to the island. You aren't supreme ruler of the criminal fucking underground. You didn't wake up from your coma and decide you wanted to be pursued by it, either."
She let go of Odile to tuck her arm behind her head, the other resting on Enora's paws. "I am just a risky reckless bitch. I want to help, but I just keep endangering everyone. And stressing you guys out. And not asking how you're doing."
She scoffed after a pause. "I should practice what I preach. Now I'm wallowing in my own self pity here."
It was Enora's turn to sigh.
"I think...you just need to be nicer to yourself."
She stood up and shook off her, before sitting back down closer to Odette's head.
"You just assured Odile she wasn't at fault for anything, which is true, so why aren't you showing yourself that kindness? You didn't agree to this trip knowing this would happen. And I know you well enough to be aware that while reckless, you're not stupid. And despite what you tell yourself, you have a good heart. I only worry because I'm--"
She stopped to take a calming breath. Stopping her thoughts from going anywhere bad; where they didn't need to be right now.
"I'm me. I worry. I think about things of the past and..."
Her fur bristled. She was quick to shake it off.
"If this is about Enigma, I can't stress enough that I'm not mad about that. We saved so many Pokemon and humans alike. I know that's all you're trying to do here as well, and while I will always try to persuade you to take the safer route, I know you just want to help and get to the root of the problem, however that may be. And I'm with you, and always have been."
She then rested her head on Odette's chest, even going as far as to nuzzle her in assurance.
"I'm alright. We've gone through hell and back, and we'll do it again, like ladies."
"̸A̶m̵ ̴I̵ ̷a̶ ̴l̴a̵d̵y̸ ̸n̸o̴w̷?̵ ̴A̸m̵ ̸I̴ ̴a̷ ̷p̷r̷e̸t̷t̶y̶ ̴l̷a̵d̸y̷?̵"̸
"Yes, you can be a pretty lady for now."
Her heart refused to fully rise out of her stomach--and she was certain that it wouldn't for a while--but she could, at least for the moment, say that she felt a little better. And she was confident that she had the best Pokemon on the island. No contest.
She began to scratch Enora behind her ear, her eyes shutting as she did. "I'm glad you're here with me. Both of you."
"̴O̶k̴a̶y̵,̸ ̴I̶ ̸l̵i̸k̶e̸ ̸a̷l̸l̷ ̶o̶f̸ ̵t̸h̵i̷s̸ ̴r̵e̷a̴s̶s̵u̵r̷i̴n̴g̶ ̴t̷a̷l̵k̷,̴ ̷b̷u̸t̷ ̴y̸o̸u̷ ̶k̸n̷o̸w̸ ̷w̵h̶a̸t̸ ̶w̵o̴u̷l̷d̸ ̴r̴e̵a̶l̷l̷y̵ ̸m̵a̶k̸e̴ ̵m̶e̵ ̶f̶e̷e̸l̸ ̴b̵e̷t̸t̶e̴r̸?̴"̷
Her eyes opened again, and she turned her head toward Odile. "What?"
"̷S̷i̵i̵i̴i̵i̷i̸i̷i̴i̴n̴g̵ ̷B̸a̵r̷r̷a̷s̵k̷e̶w̷d̸a̵.̸"̶
She laughed a little. "What, no more rapping?"
She poked Odette's shoulder lightly.
"̴B̴a̶r̸r̶a̵s̷k̷e̵w̸d̶a̷.̸ ̸I̶ ̵l̸i̶k̶e̵ ̵t̷h̶e̸ ̸s̸o̴u̶n̴d̴ ̶y̷o̵u̵r̴ ̶v̷o̵i̵c̷e̶ ̸m̶a̸k̸e̷s̸ ̷w̸h̵e̷n̴ ̷y̶o̴u̶ ̴d̸o̶ ̵t̸h̶e̶ ̸h̸i̸g̶h̶ ̶n̶o̴t̴e̸s̸.̷ I̷'̸l̸l̵ ̸d̸o̴ ̵t̸h̸e̵ ̸g̴u̸i̵t̸a̵r̸ ̴n̸o̶i̸s̷e̵s̶.̷"̷
Odile sat up quickly and began to sing the opening guitar riff, using Lululemon as a guitar as she did.
Odette laughed again, watching her with light amusement. She supposed she hadn't used her a voice in a few days, and was overdue.
"
SO, this ain't the end, I saw you again," she sang between giggles, "today. I had to turn my heart away."
It wasn't too hard of a song. She wondered why Odile liked this one in particular for it's high notes, in comparison to the other ones Odette had under her belt. But, she wouldn't question it. She felt like Odile was more interested in playing the air guitar anyway and just needed somebody to accompany her.
"You're lying
so low in the weeds, I bet you gonna
ambush me," she went on. She didn't care too much about her volume as she went up into her head voice. This was supposed to be a bonding moment, so noise complaints could suck it.
"You'd have me
down, down, down, on my knees, now wouldn't you?" She silently praised herself for her vibrato on those words. Odile even paused to clap before the phrase even ended, but it gave them a perfect opportunity for the three of them to look at each other in anticipation. They held the paused for far longer than the actual song did, but none of them really gave a fuck.
"BA
R̶R̸A̸SKEWDA," they all sang simultaneously.