Perhaps, with Brisa, Starr and the rest of Team Spectrum, things would turn out all right. Brisa had a sound head, and he trusted her judgement. If she wasn't as worried about Maple yet, then he wouldn't be. After all, at least Maple was more forthright than Soda.
And... Don't just trust me. Trust yerself."
A strange feeling spread through Koa, something like a warmth, mingling with a tightness in his throat. Brisa... she wanted him to trust himself? Even after- he swallowed quietly, but the tightness didn't quite go away.
Words gathered on his tonuge, all the things he longed desperately to say. That she shouldn't trust him, he could barely trust himself sometimes.
I'm scared. I don't want to hurt you but everything I do seems to hurt my friends.
That he was sorry. Sorry for avoiding her, sorry for running away.
Why would anyone want to be my friend? Why would you accept me after what I did?
To tell her about himself, and to understand her better. That her mentorship meant so much to him...
I want your friendship. I think you're amazing. I want to be the mon you seem to think I am but I don't think I can be.
Instead all he could manage to say was, "I'll try." That, at least, earned a tired, but genuine smile from the luxray.
He needed space to think. Giving Brisa a nod, he turned to go to his room. Maybe if he kept trying... maybe he could succeed. Despite all his apprehensions, a new lightness formed in his heart, not one of naivety, but in the surety of trust in his team.
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