Owen looked like he was going to answer, but when he started, there was a vacant look in his eyes, like this automatic answer he had was never there in the first place. He closed his mouth again, looking contemplative.
"For lifetimes, I had forgotten everyone that I once knew, and was lied to for a long time about it by people that I trusted with everything I had. I lost everyone, over and over, and now I remember every single time that I met them and didn't even realize who they were. Some of them are long dead, and others I don't think will recognize me if I saw them again." He glanced at Cal, finally uncurling. "...Almost everyone I know today has used me for their own agenda and their own gains. My mentors, my parents, even..." Owen gestured to the mark on his back. "Everyone I once held as someone I could follow has only led me down the wrong path."
"But... I'm still here. I'm still standing. And I can still fight. I have friends and people to protect and save. And the people that once hurt me, I need to save, too. Despite everything, I know that there is some good in them worth saving. I'm not..." Owen sighed. "I don't consider myself some eternal optimist. I just... don't see the point in calling it all hopeless. All that does is let them win even more. Even when things are at their worst... I can still smile. And maybe I can find an answer, too."