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[ sexually suggestive content and innuendos ]
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This one's a monolithic doozy, clocking in at around 9000 words, and this was after I cut some stuff. Prepare for a longhaul!
Also, special thanks to my sister-in-law for offering insight into the mind of an anxious lesbian! Combined with my own experiences with anxiety, I'm hoping the character I've put forward here feels authentic!
Black Heart, Bright Soul
Chapter 6: The Dark Idol
"Never meet those you hold in high esteem. You'll see that it's all an illusion -- their image is a curtain that hides disappointment after disappointment. If you truly revere someone, let them live on in your imagination."
~ Baroness Sarana of Clan Greenbriar (August 4th, 1879)
Dark Dungeon Arcade, City of Aughrim
The Dark Dungeon Arcade was an imposing structure that stood out like a sore thumb against the surrounding neighborhood -- an old decaying fortification from an age long gone, centered in the middle of a busy and bustling downtown district of steel, glass, concrete and glitzy neon lighting. Atop the ramparts were decorative stone statues that resembled various bat-like and ghostly Pokémon, as well as a multi-headed golden creature that was not quite a statue, but stood perfectly still like one.
Kimberly instantly recognized the creature as her former travel partner's most powerful and capable Pokémon: Owain the Hydreigon. As she approached the entrance of the arcade, the lone awake head angled downward to leer at her, and upon recognizing her as well, showed off row upon row of serrated fangs as it grinned.
The Hydreigon's presence was enough to shake even the stalwart bodyguard that accompanied her. "What a terrifying creature..." Mr. Tobey mumbled. "...Wish I had one of those!"
"H-hello Owain!" she nervously bleated as she drew closer. She shivered as she passed under the creature. "
Ugh! Stop staring at me, Owain! You're creepy enough with all of those heads..."
As she entered the lobby, she was stopped by an attendant with a clipboard in his hand. "Excuse me, folks. Arcade's closed for a private event today."
"I realize. I'm here for it!" Kimberly replied.
"Names?"
"Kimberly Fairbrooke," she answered.
He scanned the clipboard for her name, then motioned for the door. "Ah, VIP! Yes!" He looked up at Mr. Tobey. "How about you, big guy? Name?"
"Name's not important. I'm with the little lady -- her bodyguard."
"I'm afraid if you're not on the list, you're not getting in. You'll have to leave."
"Perhaps you didn't hear me. I'm the VIP's bodyguard."
"Not on the list, not getting in. That simple," the attendant insisted. "You're welcome to wait outside."
He took a single step forward, glared down at the man, and spoke softly and deeply. "What if I want to go in anyways?" He poked the man on the shoulder roughly. "You really think
you'd be able to stop me? If you want to make something of this, be my guest. I wouldn't recommend it though."
"Gentlemen, please," Kimberly interrupted. "I apologize for his behavior. Can you please make an exception for him?"
"U-uh. S-sorry sir." The man rushed for the door and held it open for them, bowing his head in submission. "Welcome to the dungeon! Please enjoy yourselves."
She crossed her arms, glared at him, and pushed herself to her tippy toes in an ill-fated attempt to get into her massive companion's face. "Is that going to be a regular thing? You intimidating people? Perhaps on my behalf?"
He shrugged. "I wasn't on the list, but I'm accompanying you. I saw no other way forward."
Are you sure you're safe around this ogre? He was about ready to pound that poor man's face into gravy over a small disagreement. What if you make him mad..?
She huffed. "All I had to do was vouch for you -- or you could have taken a break and left me to myself for a little bit."
"I'll keep that in mind."
"As will I. Maybe having you around isn't the worst thing..."
He grinned. "You see anyone that needs intimidatin', you let me know. Now, you go have fun catching up with Nicole! If you need me, I'll be..." He looked around the venue. "D'ah, I stand out enough. You'll be able to find me."
The interior of the arcade was a much different and much more harsh environment than she expected; dark, loud and musty. Much of the floor was poorly lit so that customers could focus on the machines that were crammed into tight rows, and a thin layer of artificial fog obscured what was left. Loud heavy metal music and the sound of the noisy patrons fought for dominance over each other. Though smoking had been outlawed in establishments like the Dark Dungeon Arcade for nearly three decades, the stench of chain smoking lingered heavily in the air and was enough to make her turn around and leave -- if only it wouldn't disappoint her dear friend.
As she looked around, she quickly spotted the reason she'd visited the arcade: the large group of about twenty people centered around a snooker table towards the back of the venue. At the center of all of that attention, stood atop the table, was a large black canine creature that was clad almost entirely in thick plates of brownish bone armor. Brightly lit and smoky red eyes peered out from what appeared to be a hollow and fleshless skull.
"Is that... Dormach? Did she evolve since I last saw her? I don't remember Houndoom having another evolutionary stage..."
Seated on a bar stool beside the creature was her longtime friend, who she'd spent the past year with as a travel partner: Nicole Spencer. Her silky black hair was pulled into a pair of pigtails, each separately highlighted with tones of neon green and burning orange. Her ears were pierced from top to bottom with six rose gold loops each, as was the septum of her nose. Atop a tartan minidress that featured the colors of her ancestral Clan Spencer -- gold, black and gray -- she wore a slim and form fitting cropped leather jacket that was covered in studs, spikes and rhinestones. Brand new thigh high heels stretched up her slender legs, locked in place with an intricate lace pattern that looked as if it would have taken an hour to do.
"
Huh. She doesn't look quite as fancily dressed as the last fan get-together she hosted..." she wondered as she approached the gathered crowd. "
Usually she's got one of her fancy dresses on to advertise it."
"...that actually a Houndecay?" asked a blonde fan, sporting a familiar-looking black dress that featured spider web motifs. "How the hell did you manage to evolve this beauty? A live Houndecay hasn't been seen in... who knows how long!"
Nicole smirked. "That's a secret! Though to be honest, I'm not actually sure what caused it... All I know is
where it happened, and I dunno if I should blab about that. That'd invite some
serious fuckin' trouble."
"Must have been by that old spooky castle down in Doranshire!" one of the other fans theorized.
"Won't say!" Nicole answered. "Castle Doranshire's a nice place, though. If I make it big, I'm buying that place, fixin' it up and livin' there! Maybe build a rave club down in the old torture dungeons!" As she scanned the crowd for reactions to her words, she spotted Kimberly and her face lit up. "Hey! Kimzee! Ya made it!"
Kimberly bashfully waved as Nicole motioned towards her. So many eyes were on her, as if she were some sort of superstar -- despite the fact that Nicole was the real superstar, especially that evening. "Hello!" she said with a squeaky and nervous voice.
"Hey, gimme a minute everyone? Gotta go say hi to my bestest bud! Haven't seen her in a couple months!" Nicole said before standing up and hopping off of the snooker table. She stumbled on the landing, and upon regaining her footing, she grabbed Kimberly by the shoulders in a powerful sweeping motion and lead her off towards a quieter part of the arcade.
"'You made it'," Kimberly repeated. "I seem to recall you sent me a message begging me to come early, because you were bored. The party has already started!"
Nicole looked back at the gathered crowd as they gawked at the stoic and stone-like Houndecay that stood atop the snooker table. "Yeah... Guess word got out that I was already here. People started showin' up before they were supposed to!" Nicole forcibly shook her in a friendly manner. "Gods! It's so great to see ya again! How ya been? Anything interesting happen over the past couple months?"
"I've been well. I've mostly stayed home and practiced for my upcoming coordination contest. I haven't really had time to do anything else."
"Still on that coordination junk, huh?"
"I don't believe it's fair to call it 'junk', friend. It's a legitimate sport with growing popularity, and something I actually appear to be good at."
"You realize how dumb that sounds, right? C'
mon, girl! You got talent leakin' out of every pore and are better than you think at just about everythin' you do! 'Sides! You been practicin' with Petyr
effin' Mylos! He's the best of the best when it comes to coordination! Of course you're gonna be good at it!"
"I do owe a lot of my progress to him. He's a very good mentor."
"Hell yeah. He's cut from the same cloth we are -- just damn good at everything we do."
She nervously laughed. While Nicole seemed gifted in the realm of Pokémon training, that was about the only thing she was good at, other than marketing a fashion line. As for herself, she wasn't ready to agree that she had any special gifts other than being born into a wealthy family.
Nicole's face lit up. "Hey speakin' of Petyr! Heard from a mutual 'friend' that you and him are datin' now!"
"How did you... I haven't told anyone about that except for Mr. Tobey!"
"Kimzee, one thing you gotta learn about stardom -- and you're not even there yet, sister... you don't have privacy anymore. You might notta told anyone and Petyr might notta told anyone, but people always have their eyes on a guy like him. Paparazzi types, ya know?"
"Paparazzi..." she muttered before groaning with annoyance. "Let me ask, you heard that from Lochlan at
The Breaking Wave, didn't you?"
Nicole nodded. "Douchebag piece of work, ain't he?"
She shook her head and groaned again. "What is with people lately going out of their way to violate my privacy? Him and I used to be such good friends... I have half a mind to pay double what that dumb magazine is paying him, just to get him to leave Petyr alone. I'm not going to tolerate him violating my privacy by violating Petyr's."
A devious grin appeared on Nicole's face. "There ya go! Finally usin' all that money of yours for somethin' good! Somethin'
corrupt! I like it."
"Heh. I don't know, is it really corrupt?"
"You kiddin' right now? Payin' money to get people to keep quiet and look the other way doesn't sound the least bit corrupt?" Nicole asked. "Speakin' of corruption and scandal, you slept with him yet?"
Her eyes widened. "N-Nicole!"
Nicole burst into uproarious laughter. "You're such a prude! You should see the look on your face!" Her grip on Kimberly's shoulders tightened again. "Seriously, though... He may have been your mother's idea, but the guy's a nice catch for ya... Well mannered, wealthy, cute... not to mention the dude's got connections coming out of every hole, too. You should really be thinkin' of startin' that, even if it's not your cup of tea. So he doesn't get bored, ya know? Keep him interested, keep him around!"
"I-I'm not ready for that!"
"Not ready for it? Come on, you're fuckin' 22 years old! You were ready years ago, ya just don't realize it."
She pushed herself out of her friend's grip. "That's not what -- I'm not the type to give it away that easily. Besides, Petyr and I have only been together for... a month now?"
"Ah c'mon, you're startin' to sound like your mom!" She adjusted her accent and took on a mocking tone before continuing, "Us women are walking works of art! We're prim and proper! Princesses! We're better than that! Save it for marriage! And even then, it's only a service for our husbands! Only use it to pop out babies! Don't have fun, ever!"
Heh. That's a good impression of mom, eh..?
"Nicole, stop. I'm not ready. It's not happening. That is the end of it."
Nicole crossed her arms and rolled her eyes. "D'ah! You're no fun sometimes. Don't come cryin' to me if he finds someone who's happy to give up the goods and leaves ya over it. All those famous celebrity types got girls linin' up for them, and he's prolly no exception. Look at me, I've certainly got my choice of the boys, and I'm nowhere near as famous as him!"
Jeeze. You call this girl your friend? What a bitch. Though she always has been ever since you were kids, right?
She clenched her fists, shook her head and sighed. "I didn't come down here to be ridiculed by my best friend for the crime of still being a virgin. I suggest you find another topic, or I'm leaving."
"Alright, alright, sorry," Nicole offered, her voice several octaves lower. "Just one more thing I want to say about that, and I'll do my best to be serious about it: Part of why I'm suggesting you fool around with him -- even if you don't go all the way -- is it'll finally put to rest that question you've been having about yourself. Give you some solid answers. It's been a little heartbreaking to watch my best friend beat herself up over her sexuality, you know? And, hey! If you don't like it? So what. There's
nothing wrong with a girl who likes other girls, right? I don't give a shit what anyone says."
Nicole's sudden turn towards seriousness -- and with notably improved elocution -- caught her off guard, but it was heartwarming to see. "I suppose it would give me the answers... I just don't know if I'm interested. Especially this soon. I don't want to compromise my ideals just to chase an answer I've been seeking."
"Hey, I might give you a hard time about it sometimes, but that's fair. I'd have been in bed with the guy by now if I were in your fancy little shoes, but... You're you. My bestie. You don't have to change for me, Kimzee. For anybody."
She smiled.
"So anyways!" she remarked in a shrill manner, her high pitched words returning. "How're things back home? Any news about my old folks?"
Kimberly shook her head. "They refuse to talk to me. They still think I'm the reason you 'ran away from home'."
A sharp exhale escaped Nicole's nose as she smirked. "Figures... They still don't realize it was the other way around, do they? I practically had to drag you kickin' and screamin' to come with me."
"They were worried about you! They didn't think a career as a Pokémon trainer would work out. Not to mention the danger involved..."
"Idiots. Didn't even believe in their own god damn daughter. Grandma Spencer was the Rose League's first woman champion, but according to them, I had no chance? Look at me now, though! 77 and 3 record, top of the Rose League leaderboards! I'm about ready to bust some Elite Four skulls, claim another championship for the Spencer family. Quicker and cleaner than Grandma did it... And they never thought I could do it... D'ya have any idea how that feels?"
"I... Heh. I do, actually... But I still don't think it's fair to call them idiots."
"Well, whatever. Speakin' of the Elite Four, umm... My challenge against them and hopefully the champion got scheduled super early, right at the end of the month. I've decided that I'm bucklin' down and trainin'
hard to make sure I'm ready to become the legend I was born to be. I'm talkin' real wilderness survival shit, spendin' a couple weeks up in the Dornoch Mountains, fightin' bears, survivin' blizzards and pushin' my team beyond their limits."
Kimberly felt a sense of dread about the idea. "Uhh, are you feeling okay? And w-what about --"
"I know what you're going to say," Nicole interrupted, her voice lowering and her elocution raising again. "You have obligations here in Aughrim, probably back home, too. I get that. Which means we're going to have to part ways for a little bit longer, you know? Don't worry, I got someone backing me up out there, I won't be alone! But it's too dangerous to bring you out there. I don't think you'd enjoy it, anyways. It gets cold in the mountains, and we'd be living rough for a few weeks. Rougher than we ever experienced together. I can't do that to you."
Her heart dropped. "Wh-what do you mean? I thought we agreed to hit the road together again after the Flower of Aughrim?"
"Sorry. That's just how it is, you know? I didn't ask for my league challenge to be scheduled so soon, but now that it is, I... I have to step my game up or I'll crash and burn for sure."
Wow, she is
a bitch, isn't she? Made all sorts of promises to you just a few days ago and now she's breaking them for her own selfish benefit...
The thought worried her. She knew that league champions were busy people with lots of responsibilities -- one of which was staying at Castle Ardhmoor to defend their title from challengers. If Nicole's challenge was successful and she was crowned the new Rose League Champion... "
She wouldn't have time to travel with me anymore..." she thought. "But if you become the champion... we won't... get to..."
Nicole embraced her closely again. "Hey! We'll cross that bridge when we get to it! I do have lot of confidence in myself, but I have to be honest with myself, too: dethroning the champion is
not gonna be easy. Champions tend to reign for years, and the guy there now just got there last month."
"Still..."
She dismissed the conversation with a swat of her hand and raised her tone again. "But ahh, we'll worry about this later, eh? I gotta get back to the fans! I know these punks ain't your kinda crowd, but come join us! Try to have some fun! You'll be regrettin' it tomorrow if you don't spend some time with your bestie and her fans!"
"Uhh. Okay! I'll try!"
Over the next thirty minutes, she tried to mingle with the fans, but Nicole was right: the people around her certainly weren't her type. Conversations stalled fairly quickly with everyone she tried to talk to -- either they were loud and rude, or they talked about subjects she had little interest or knowledge in. Mostly, the only interest they seemed to have in
her was her association with Nicole, attempting to get juicy gossip out of her, rather than have friendly conversations with someone new.
Why are you so surprised? You never fit in with Nicole's fans, and you never even enjoyed these gatherings. Why did you expect it to be different this time..?
She didn't, but she was still disappointed. She was ready to leave, but worried it would be rude to leave so soon. As she looked around for more people to talk to, she felt more and more alienated; the crowd of leather-clad fans, with their bright and wild hair, their excessive tattoos, their loud and brash personalities, was completely at odds with herself -- well-mannered, conservatively dressed, and soft-spoken. There was so little common ground between herself and Nicole's fans -- and by extension, little common ground with Nicole as well, she realized.
"She sure has changed since we were kids... I do enjoy her company and her energy, but I kind of miss when she was soft-spoken like me. I don't like this unpredictable, slightly insane image she's putting on..."
Still, she made a pledge to herself to stay on the off chance that Nicole might need her for some reason; it was rare for her to be included in the festivities of the fan gatherings, but it had happened before. However, with no one to talk to, no new stories to listen to and little interest in video games, she reached for her purse and pulled out a small notepad that was filled with her coordination routines. She was determined to make some sort of headway on her upcoming competition, even if it was just going over her plans.
"Ah ha ha ha, right!? We kicked major fuckin' ass in Steelport!" Nicole's loud, booming voice called out. "That was such a great night!"
Look at that. She's telling your
big story and not even including you this time. Some friend, huh..?
Unfortunately, the venue was anything but conducive to focusing, and she almost immediately found herself distracted by the loud music, the beepbooping of the arcade cabinets, the raucous laughter and discussions coming from Nicole's direction, and of course the voice of doubt. Tried as she might, she just couldn't break free from the energy around her or the persistently negative thoughts in her head, and her eyes started to wander. As she looked around the venue, she noticed someone she hadn't tried speaking to yet: the very same blonde she saw when she first arrived, walking out of a row of arcade cabinets towards the concessions bar.
She watched as the blonde leaned against the bar, ordered a drink, and then took it back to one of the empty tables, far from the gaggle of fans that surrounded Nicole. After a quick glance in the crowd's direction, the blonde visibly sighed, reached into the tall striped stockings she wore and pulled out her phone and a coiled up pair of earbuds. In short order, she was bobbing back and forth, lost in both a world of music and her phone.
"
Wow, who is that?" she wondered as she took note of the blonde's features. Her thin lips were covered in matte black lipstick, her eyelids featured a similar coloration, and striking eyeliner finished off her makeup. Her hair -- showcasing exposed brown roots that signaled a dye job -- was parted on the left and allowed to freely flow downward, shyly covering the right half of her face. Her hair and the distance at which they were seated from each other made it difficult to tell for certain, but she found herself captivated by the blonde's blue or slate gray eyes. Her overall look was punctuated by a set of rings and bracelets that reinforced the spider motif of her clothing.
"Whoever she is, she's
cute..." she whispered to herself as she continued to glance in the blonde's direction -- blissfully unaware that she was obviously staring.
She's just another fan -- a stranger, and nothing more...
A wave of awkward embarrassment careened into her as she and the blonde exchanged glances. She tried to double down on her focus and return to her notes, but kept finding herself looking upward and glancing in the direction of the stranger for a brief few seconds. Even among the other fans, the stranger stood out; pretty much everyone else was dressed in studded or spiked black leather and tight fitting slate denim, yet the stranger's attire was much more sophisticated; lacy frills at the bottom of a dress that featured spiderweb-like patterns of silver threading, and intricately woven fishnets that also resembled spiderwebs ran down her arms.
"That's definitely a
Misfit Angel dress she's wearing... Know that design like the back of my hand... Would she find it odd if I went up and asked her about it? Maybe I could make a new friend in the process?"
No doubt she would. Strangers don't like to be bothered about what they're wearing, it's creepy! And friendship? Get real..!
She was ready to push herself to her feet and approach the stranger before she was knocked back down by a bout of anxiety. That tricky voice in the back of her mind reminded her of the many facts of life relating to social interaction:
Don't approach strangers out in public unless they're openly broadcasting it's okay, they're just trying to get on with their lives, you weirdo; commenting on a stranger's appearance, or complimenting them in any way is a sign that you're a deviant, you creep; strangers won't want to hear your boring life stories, or about how your life is so much better than theirs, you twat. All of this is why people who aren't forced
to be associated with you tend to shy away and not like you, you loser.
She realized her whole thought process was stupid; she'd talked to other fans out of the blue, why would it be wrong to approach her?
"It wouldn't be. It's a fan gathering, after all... Ugh, maybe I didn't take my anxiety medication today... I thought I did..."
She did her best to put all of her anxieties into a box and pack them away with a deep breath. She gathered her courage as she made her way towards the table on the other side of the floor, completely unsure of what to expect. The uncertainty only added to her apprehension. She couldn't believe she was getting this worked up over a simple introduction; she rarely found it difficult to interact with strangers in the past, even just twenty minutes ago, and wondered why it was so different this time.
It's because you're creeping on her. Why so much focus on her appearance? A stranger's, no less? Don't be weird, now. Just turn around...
She approached the table and tapped the stranger on the shoulder. "Excuse me, miss?"
"Hmm?" the blonde murmured before she tugged at the wires leading to her ears, popping out her earbuds. The blonde's deep blue eyes snapped Kimberly's attention up. "Need something?"
"
Wow... She's even prettier up close," she thought, pausing for a moment. "I, umm... I couldn't help but... but notice you, and umm..."
The blonde's eyebrow shot upward.
"Umm!" she started, clearing her throat. "I was just wondering if you'd like to chat, maybe?"
"Uhh..." the blonde mumbled. A look around showed at least half a dozen empty tables around her. "Having a bad night. Kinda wanted to sit alone for awhile..."
"Oh. I see..." She turned around to return to her previous spot, only for the blonde's voice to speak up and call out.
"Hey, hold on! My roommate told me to make the most of tonight. Meet new people. Hard to do that when I sit alone, right?" A brief smirk appeared on the blonde's face. "Besides, you sound even more socially awkward than I do, so this should be some good entertainment." She tapped on the screen and the screeching music from her earbuds ceased. "Have a seat, I guess."
She took the seat across from the blonde and laughed nervously. "I am not normally that awkward, I assure you."
"Guess we'll see," the blonde responded. A lengthy silence followed as they both glanced around the venue, and eventually that coy smile reappeared on the blonde's face. "Not awkward, huh..." she quietly mused. "So, uhh... You said you wanted to
talk, right?"
Wow, Kim! You're blowing this introduction pretty hard! At least say something to her... just as long as it's not about her looks, eh..?
"Yes! Umm. Ahem. I just thought you looked a little lonely over here by yourself. Maybe you'd like some company? People typically don't come to events like these to people watch."
"Maybe I'm not your typical girl," the blonde replied. "I could say the same about you. Noticed you sitting alone, too, watching everyone."
She offered a polite smile. "I came here to socialize with Nicole's fans, but nobody wants to talk to me. Or if they do, they want to talk about
her. I suppose it's to be expected at an event all about her, but it's still a little bit disappointing..."
The blonde let out a light chuckle. "Tell me about it! Nobody wants to talk to me, either. You'd think at least one of these guys would be interested in chatting up another hot goth girl, see where and how fast things go, but you're right. It's like Nicole has some sort of spell on them. Boys, huh?"
"Heh, yeah. Boys..." she mumbled. "I take it that she's ignoring you, too, isn't she?"
They both looked back at the black haired idol, seated atop one of the tables. She let out a roaring laugh and gingerly placed her hand on one of the boys' shoulders.
"Tch! I'm starting to wonder why I even bothered coming. I was so excited, too -- Nicole's been my idol ever since I found her fashion blog a few years ago, before she even became famous... But all she could do was say hi, gloss over my questions, then just kinda gravitate towards the boys. It's like I don't even exist to her." The blonde raised her glass of sparkling soda and tilted it forward in a mock toasting motion. "Never meet your idols. What a bitter, fucking disappointment."
"It's nothing personal," she said. "She doesn't interact with her female fans all that much."
"Ehh?" The blonde looked her up and down with curious eyes, taking note of the vintage-looking pastel pink diner dress that she was wearing. "Maybe I shouldn't judge a book by its cover, but you don't exactly look the type to be a fan of Nicole. I figure most of her fans would look like her, judging by the people who came here today."
She awkwardly looked down at her attire and felt nervous about the assessment the blonde had given her, even if it was mostly accurate. "Heh, uhh. I wouldn't call myself a fan, no. I'm actually a close friend of hers."
"You serious?" The blonde's expression lightened a bit, and she started looking more closely.
She could see the blonde's eyes studying her features one by one; downward towards her body, back up towards her face, and finally up towards her dark chestnut hair. She felt a sense of nervousness wash over her as her new acquaintance continued to study her.
The blonde's blackened lips curled into a smile. "Yeah... You do look familiar... I feel like I've seen you in a few of Nicole's photos." The blonde began to snap her fingers rapidly as she thought. "Shit, I don't know if I ever saw your name... What'd she call you, Kimzee? Are you, uhh... Kimberly, by any chance?"
Her face lit up and her own smile broke through, as did a nervous laugh. "Yes! Kimberly Fairbrooke! I'm glad someone around here recognizes me. I'd prefer if you don't call me 'Kimzee' though, I hate that little pet name... So.
Much!"
The blonde nodded. "I'll keep that in mind... I'm Andrea. Huge fan of Nicole, and... that's about all there is to my story."
"Well, Ms. Andrea, it's a pleasure to meet you."
Andrea continued to nod politely. "Yeah, you too." There was a long lull in the conversation, during which point Andrea fidgeted nervously, as if Kimberly's continued presence was bothering her.
Come on, surely you can keep a conversation going, can't you? Though, you were always only ever good at following conversations and nodding politely -- nodding empty-headedly -- rather than leading them...
That annoying voice was beginning to irritate her, and she sought not just to prove it wrong, but perhaps make a new and lasting connection. She tried to think of ways to bridge the gap, but nothing particular -- aside from Andrea's appearance -- sprang to mind. "So, I've been wanting to get to know some of Nicole's fans for awhile now, but... Most of her fans are men, and I don't really fit in with this kind of crowd. You're the only other girl here, so... I don't know! Maybe you can you tell me a little about yourself?"
Andrea shrugged. "What do you want to know?"
She shrugged. "Anything, really! I find your accent curious... It doesn't sound like you're from Aughrim, but I can't quite pin down where it's from."
"You
are awkward! That's the first thing you want to know?" A chuckle escaped Andrea. "Well, everyone tells me they can't figure out where I'm from when they first talk to me... If you really want to know, I was born in the Storm Islands, way on the other side of the world. I lived there until I was... six or seven? My parents moved to a little village in the Heartland called Honeybrook, and then I spent the last few years here in Aughrim. I guess my accent must be pretty terrible to hear, especially with how long I spent in the Heartland... That horrible countryside drawl must have started to bleed in..."
"Oh, no! It hasn't at all! And I think your accent is quite lovely, actually. Exotic."
"Thanks?"
"Exotic might be the wrong word! It sounds... refined. Well-mannered. A little bit posh."
"Tt! Ha!" Andrea honked. "Maybe for my accent, but none of those things apply to
me."
"Heh, I see. So you have lived here for a few years, then?"
"Yep."
"What's it like? I've only ever stayed overnight to attend a conference with my father, and I didn't get to experience Aughrim much."
"I can tell by
your accent that you're from Visalia just like Nicole is, so let me warn you: don't get your hopes up about this place. Unlike where you come from, there's nothing nice about the city if you ask me. Everyone is rude, selfish, and with some new justice reforms passed by the city council at the start of the year, violent crime is starkly on the rise... I can't say I really enjoy living here."
"Why stay here, then?"
Andrea's expression darkened. "Because I'm trapped and I have no other options? I've been out of work for nearly six months. My roommate and I only barely manage to scrape by by doing odd jobs for friends and neighbors to pay for rent and dinner, and I've been going to bed hungry some nights just to recover the costs of the tickets to this stupid gathering. I can't even go home to Honeybrook, I stupidly burned bridges with my dad a few months back... I'm on a knife's edge, and unless something changes, I can't afford to move somewhere with more opportunity."
"
Wow, how much is Nicole charging for these tickets? She's not exactly short on money, and I've always been happy to help her when she was..." she thought.
She had a hard time believing Andrea's story, owing to the fact that her new acquaintance was wearing heavy makeup and designer clothing -- with boots that looked like they'd cost a couple golden roses all on their own. Not to mention the luxurious silver necklace that sparkled with a pearlescent blue sheen -- the hallmark of expensive Argentium silver -- and the various jewelry she sported along her fingers, wrists and ears. Andrea was also on the curvier side, how could she be starving? It would hardly be the first time a stranger tried winding her up or attempted to take advantage of her sympathy -- and her bank account -- with falsehoods, so she vowed to be careful. "Surely it's not that grim."
"Lady, you don't even know. If I didn't have my roommate looking out for me, I'd probably be chained up to a radiator in a basement somewhere, or I'd be a murdered prostitute, rotting in a ditch right now."
She found herself completely blind sided by Andrea's wildly imaginative and grotesque assertions, and began to wonder if she had struck out as she had with the other fans in attendance. "Umm. What a thing to say."
"Sorry, that was a little grim... Maybe my life isn't
that bad... But it's still pretty bad," Andrea said before sighing. "I'm hoping that all changes soon... I just got home yesterday from an internship in Loch Alstan. I think I did well enough, but I'm trying not to get my hopes up. I've done that too often in the past."
"Ooh, Loch Alstan? Sounds charming! At least if you find work there, your financial problems should go away, right? I hear the average wage there is quite high compared to the rest of the kingdom, Alderney and Visalia excluded."
"Part of why I applied where I did, to be honest..." Andrea said with a nod. "Ah, but you've been listening to me all this time, it's only fair I listen to you, too! What about you? You do anything interesting for a living?"
"Heh, umm. Not really. I'm sort of between careers at the moment. I used to dabble in art before Nicole asked me to join her on the road. After a while, I grew interested in Pokémon training and tried it myself, but the amount of commitment, skill and frankly abusive ownership required to compete at a higher level was too much for me."
"Yeah... I used to date a guy who was into Pokémon training, thought he'd be the next Lance of Clan Blackthorne. He wasn't even that good, despite spending all of his time training instead of, you know, going out on dates with me like he promised. Haven't had a deep appreciation for high level training ever since."
Ouch, tough luck Kim! Did you hear that? She dates guys... May as well give up now and go do something better with your time...
She paused for a brief moment to silence the voice in the back of her mind. "And yet here you are, at a fan gathering for one of the most successful competitive trainers of this generation!"
"Heh. I guess it's easy to look the other way when they're an idol of yours, huh?"
She nodded.
Andrea's posture adjusted towards a more casual and comfortable one. "So what do you want to do now? Thinking of going back to your artwork?"
"I thought about it, but I'm not sure about that. I wouldn't say I'm unskilled at it, but I've had a frustrating time with progressing my skills further, let alone figuring out how to get my art out there and seen... So I've been wanting to get into Pokémon coordination instead, actually."
Andrea rested her chin between her fingers in thought. "Huh... Coordination..."
"Have you never heard of it?"
"I have, I just don't know a lot about it. Isn't it, like... like those old circus shows?"
"Actually, yes! 19th century circus shows are where coordination found its roots! I guess I shouldn't be surprised that you haven't really heard of it. Pokémon coordination is not a widely popular sport compared to competitive training, and most people don't take it seriously. I suspect that is because it's traditionally viewed as a woman's sport, but... That is just my biased opinion."
Andrea laughed. "I dunno, you're probably right about that. I've noticed that there are so few women worth looking up to as heroes when it comes to Pokémon training... That's honestly the biggest reason I don't take competitive training too seriously myself. Nicole's been my biggest exception."
"Would you be interested in hearing about coordination at all?"
"Sure! Doesn't look like I'm going to get anywhere with any of these guys, so I've got all night to kill."
Did she seriously just say that? And you're seriously going to keep talking to her..?
She pinched the bridge of her nose and sighed.
Andrea's head tilted. "You okay?"
She dismissed Andrea's concern with a wave of her hand. "Just a mild headache, I guess."
"Yeah, music's pretty loud in here, isn't it? I've been here a lot, I know a quieter spot if you'd like."
She looked back at Nicole to find her still atop the snooker table, grinding against one of her fans in an extremely close and intimate dance. Seeing it made her jealous -- her friend had begged her to visit and keep her company, only for her to be more or less ignored after a quick and mostly upsetting conversation.
"I'd like that. This atmosphere just isn't for me."
Andrea grabbed her sparkling soda and downed as much of it as she could, then slammed the cup back down onto the table with a messy splash. "Can't promise the atmosphere will be all that different, but it'll at least be quieter! C'mon, follow me."
"I don't like this..." Andrea mumbled quietly.
"Don't like what, friend?"
"Don't look now, but there's some gorilla in a suit following us."
She looked back to see Mr. Tobey several paces behind them. "Oh. Him. Don't worry about him."
"You know him?"
"It's a long story. He's looking after me today, he won't bother us."
"A bodyguard, huh? You'd think Nicole would be the one to have one, not you."
"It's not by choice, believe me..." she said softly. "But he's an old family friend. I trust him when he says he'll stay out of the way. He's just... very proactive with his job. He doesn't want to let me out of his sight."
"Hmm. Still. Kinda weird. Anyways, up here," Andrea said, pointing up a set of spiral stairs that ended at a large metal door. She placed her foot on the bottom step and pushed against it, causing the entire set of stairs to wobble slightly. "Uhh... I usually go up these stairs alone. I don't know if they could support all of our weight combined. So, one at a time?"
"Are you sure it's even safe?"
Andrea glanced at her up and down again. "Well, if I can get up these, you'll be able to. You're a bit thinner than I am. Your friend in the suit, though..." She turned to address the large man. "Your choice if you wanna follow us up."
He nodded. "Don't plan on letting her out of my sight."
"Right... Here goes." Andrea muttered before she followed the spiral to the top and let in a welcoming blast of chilly, fresh air.
At the top, they found themselves atop the tallest spire of the Dark Dungeon Arcade, the southwest tower that served as a watch post in ages long ago. Even then in the modern era, with the old fort eclipsed by giant skyscrapers around it, the tower still afforded a decent view: Dragoon Avenue offered a direct line of sight to the harbor, a location brightly lit up by the pleasure park built on the water, while Lancaster Street, York Street and Rosewood Boulevard offered views into downtown and the city's bustling entertainment district.
"Oooh! Is that a Ferris wheel out on the pier?" Kimberly asked as she rushed over to the crenellated barrier around the roof. "How charming! I've always wanted to go on one!"
Andrea leaned on the wall next to her. "Heh, well... You can't go on that one, at least. No one's allowed on it because the pier's structural stability isn't what it used to be, and the city council would rather spend our taxes on their own pockets... So it serves as a makeshift lighthouse these days."
"Ah..."
"So! Better out here than in there?"
"Yes, much..."
"Well," Andrea started, taking a seat on one of the bulky air conditioning units that dotted the roof. "You wanted to tell me about coordination. Let's hear it."
"Ah, yes! Well, there are many styles to it, but the most popular form -- and the one I am interested in competing in -- it's, well a stage show, I guess! It's the form of coordination that is most authentic to its roots as a circus show, as I mentioned before. It involves flashiness, showmanship, stunning visuals and enchanting costumes."
"How often do you get to see Dewgongs jumping through hoops of fire?"
"That's pretty common these days, still. But it's more than just that; there's music, there's dance, and there's dozens of other odd talents that coordinators bring to the stage. I myself want to try to employ gymnastics in my routines, and I'm hoping the practice I've been putting in pays off. One false move and I'm landing hard on the stage, rather than the soft mats I practiced with..."
"Sounds a lot more fun than watching Pokémon rip each other to shreds in fights, all while people cheer loudly and gamble away their paychecks on it."
"Yes... That side of the sport put me off of competitive training, so I moved onto coordination instead. It just feels a lot more friendly and humane. I guess that's the woman's touch, and why people don't follow it as enthusiastically..."
"Yep. If it doesn't involve bloodshed and violence, it's not worth a man's time, I guess."
She giggled. "I don't think it's quite that, but, ah well... Coordination is all in good fun, but I can't accurately state how nervous I am... My first contest is coming up next week..."
"Oof, having trouble believing in yourself?"
She nodded. "It's just that I've only picked this up recently, and already everyone around me is confident that I'll take the whole Coordinator's Society by storm. All of the encouragement I've been receiving, the belief people have in me, it feels a little hollow. I've yet to even prove myself."
"I don't know about any of that, but would it change anything if a stranger said you shouldn't worry and just try to have fun?"
She paused and thought about it.
"Look at it this way. The past few years of
my life have been people encouraging me and telling me I can achieve anything because of my talent, but I've never been quite so sure about that. I keep feeling like I got where I did because I was lucky, or good looking, or because I worked harder than I needed to fill in the talent gap. Luck was how I got onto my school's softball team, which earned me the scholarship towards the university I went to. Random chance put me and my ex-fiance together. Good looks are probably what got me a job I was pretty terrible at when I first started. Extremely hard work to cover for my slipping grades is what eventually got me my degree in biology." Andrea's excitement over putting herself down waned for a moment, before she added, "I don't know. Just... you're not alone when it comes to thinking people are lying to you about how good or special you might be. There are a lot of reasons they might do that, but... The important thing is to just have fun doing what you do, I think, and put on the best show you can. If you fall short of everyone's expectations, that's okay."
"Thank you! Finally someone who feels the same!" She smiled warmly. "I'll do my best. Not just in my performances, but in having fun while doing it. You're right, that
is the important thing."
"Yep."
"
I wonder... She doesn't seem totally
disinterested in the sport of coordination... Would she be interested in actually attending a contest?"
She's just humoring you, you idiot. She said it herself, she's just looking to kill time since she couldn't get laid tonight...
She grumbled quietly to herself. "Umm... It may be a a little presumptuous of me to ask, but..." she bleated nervously, then froze.
"But?"
"You mentioned earlier that you don't have many women to look up to when it comes to sports. Maybe... Maybe I could be one of them? Because I'm... kind of in need of a fan to cheer me on." She flinched as Andrea's facial expression hinted at her disinterest, but she was already in too deep. "Like I said, my next contest is coming up soon, and the only person I expected to be by my side said she's not coming. If you're interested and have the time to attend, I could arrange for a VIP ticket for you. It would be no problem."
Andrea seemed as if she didn't know how to respond. "I... I don't know. Next week?" she said, followed up by something murmured too quietly to hear. "Umm... ... ...maybe?"
"You don't sound so certain."
"It's just... I dunno! It's a bit sudden, I don't know you all that well, or even follow coordination at all... I don't know if I'd enjoy myself at all. And if things go well for me, I might not even be in town by next week. I don't want to make a promise I can't keep. I've done that enough in my life."
"Oh! That's understandable! I'm happy to give you some time to think it over! Perhaps I could get your number and ask again as we get closer to the night of the contest?"
Woah, woah! Asking for a stranger's number? What is wrong
with you..?
Once again, Andrea's confounded expression returned, and she hesitated to answer. A mix of frustrated sighs and huffs of unsureness preceded her final answer, "Uhhh. Sure, why not. I guess if I am in town, it'd be a... change of pace from another night of staying in and lamenting about my boring and sad existence. Could do with having some friends again, too! Just... don't expect me to cheer loudly from the crowd if I do attend. I don't
do enthusiasm."
She grinned. "Considering the way you're dressed, I'm not surprised."
"Hey, don't let my looks deceive you. I just like the aesthetic. I don't do enthusiasm for other reasons," Andrea answered back as she turned her phone back on. "Let's see... My number is 1-704-6245."
She brought her own phone out and added Andrea to her contacts list. "1-704-6245..." she repeated for confirmation. "Thank you! Do you need mine?"
Andrea nodded. "That's probably a good idea. I get so many robocalls and texts these days that I'm considering ignoring numbers I don't recognize... Probably not ideal for a jobless girl to do while she has a million applications out there, but... fuck, it's so annoying!"
"Yes... It really is out of control, isn't it? My number is 1-102-1143."
"1... 102..." Andrea muttered. "Got it. Send me a message a couple days before the contest and we'll see if I'm up for it? Remember, no promises."
She smiled. "Very well! You're free to send me messages as well, if you like! I wouldn't mind. It's great to make new friends!"
Andrea snickered. "You will mind once you see the kind of shit I send to people!"
"Heh... Should I be scared?"
"Nah. I just tend to send silly memes that people have a hard time understanding, it seems." The phone in her hand started to buzz and she took a moment to stare at the screen. "Fuck... Seriously?" She sighed loudly. "Guess it's good timing you asked for my number."
"What's wrong?"
"Something's come up, I gotta head home and get some sleep."
"Oh! Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, yeah... Just gotta meet with someone early in the morning now." She sighed. "These wild swings in my sleep pattern are gonna put me in an early grave, I swear..."
"I see. It was nice meeting you!"
"Yeah. You too."
"Ah, before you go... I'm curious, do you live nearby?"
Andrea gestured towards the west. "A couple blocks that way on Lancaster. Why?"
"I was just curious. I think I'm done here as well, and Mr. Tobey and I could walk you home, if you like."
Andrea shook her head wildly. "Nah, I'm good. Neighborhood hasn't gone to the wolves quite yet. Thank you for the offer, though."
She nodded. "Be safe! You'll hear from me in a few days, if not earlier!"
Well, well! That went surprisingly well. But you did hear what she said, didn't you? 'It'd be nice to have some friends again.' Don't get your hopes up about this one, Kim. She's just using you to patch up a hole in her life, and she'll throw you into the dirt when she's found someone better...
There must be a reason she doesn't have any friends... Maybe that sweet personality she showed is just a facade. She might just be a bitter asshole. Wouldn't that be a shame, putting time and effort into meeting someone new, and she turns out to just be taking advantage of you for her own selfish reasons...